For some reason, I just got compelled to Google how many days it has been since I moved back from London and it turns out it’s been 918. No wonder it seems so long ago – that’s a lot of days! Then I obviously had to continue my search to see what the date will be if I plan a trip to go back on the 1000 mark, and that would be March 11, 2016.

Flights are reasonably priced – far less than what I ever paid to go to and from when I actually lived over there! I have more than enough PTO days to use at work, too, so there aren’t too many restrictions on that front. It isn’t even busy busy season then, just moderately busy! But there is something preventing me from taking the plunge and I can’t quite put my finger on it. Maybe I can, actually. Part of my hesitation stems from the fact that I would have nobody to go with. My friends are either too busy, have no interest in going to Europe, or are kind of at that stage of their lives where vacations are supposed to be with significant others.

I feel like I may never travel again given that I am single and considering the state of our fragile world, I probably shouldn’t embark on these adventures alone. I kind of don’t want to anymore anyway. I have traveled solo several times and it is liberating, freeing, a time for self growth and discovery. I will likely have theses opportunities again in my lifetime, but at this moment I yearn for companionship. I want to tour-guide someone around London. Have all of the stories I have told them make sense. Show them the walks I’ve walked. Bring them to my homes and show them where I worked. Where I thrived and where I struggled.

Another huge struggle is the emotional side. I just don’t know if I am ready to go back. But will I ever be? I don’t want to fall in love with the city all over again. Will it be the same as I left it? Will the chicken pot pie soup from EAT with cheddar crisps be as good as I remember? Ahhh so many variables!

One day I will make it back – whether or not that day will be March 11, 2016 is a whole other question.



~ by wanderlust1011 on December 21, 2015.

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